I got my green belt for tae kwon do. I have no idea how that happened because I kind of suck.

One of my mice, Itchy, died. We buried her today.

I'm literally afraid of drawing right now. I think it might be because I drank a bunch of caffeine, which makes me obscenely depressed and I'll probably start having suicidal thoughts in a minute. Whee! Hopefully I can distract myself by getting some writing done.

I saw District 9. It was kinda sad but I liked it. I think my husband didn't like it though >_>

Tomorrow is my tae kwon do green belt test. I think I'm going to fail because I've been a space-case weeping weakling at almost every class for the past 3 months or so. I have forgotten one of my patterns and suck at the ones I do remember.

On the plus side, as of today I am the proud owner of the book "Old Ways of Working Wood" by Alex W. Bealer, thanks to my sister who bought it for me. It is a book I find most useful in writing for my character Laaer, him being a woodworker of the technology levels of mid-1800s American pioneers. It's cool to know all the ins and outs of kinds of wood and tools, for greater authenticity. I should make more of my characters craftspeople because it's fun to do research on their behalf.

I'm gonna be moving out of this crappy neighborhood and into the apartment above my sisters. *Hallelujah chorus*

Ugh man, my legs are still so sore from tae kwon last Saturday do I can's stand up or sit down without pain, and today we did sparring and my arms are trashed. I have little sparkly bruises all over and one of those swollen bruised bumps like in anime.

I've been reading up on books about carpentry and woodworking to add some authenticity to my stories with Laaer, a character of mine who works with wood for a living. It is really fun. It would be great if I could get some good reference photos of old-fashioned carpenters at work so I could paint some pictures of him, but I have no camera and I don't think we have a lot of historical re-enactment places around here.

All evening, my head has felt totally empty and spacey like I've been huffing nitrous oxide. It's really weird. But it feels kinda good, lol.

I got my orange belt in Tae Kwon Do today.

Wisconsin is being really rainy and brown and pretty. I wish I had a camera.

Also everyone on my friends list seems to have collapsing lives and/or is really upset. All at the same time. And I'm too depressed myself to really console anyone. Blerrrrrgh

I have a tae kwon do test soon. I am only moderately confident. I've got to remember more stuff than in the last test.

I've been reading Frank Peretti and apparently just sitting down and reading something new is all it took to get me in a writing mood again. And I read a book about developing characters by Orson Scott Card, which went into the MICE (milieu-idea-character-event) explanation of plot types and I realized my Naasenor Story switches from being a Milieu story to a Character one midway through. That's probably why the worldbuilding in the second half seems so dull. Hunh.

My right wrist is really dead and sore seeming lately. This is not good. I have important computer things and tae kwon do to do. Repetitive stress injuries are a bad thing.

Oh I got my yellow belt and a uniform awhile ago. So yay.

Also, I has a new icon.

It's 10:18 and I'm supposed to be asleeeeep

I have a tae kwon do belt test tomorrow. If I don't get enough sleep I have terrible balance and will fall over.

I can't sleeeeeep
no matter how much I lay down

help me friendslist ;_;

At tae kwon do everyone was breaking boards and I kinda wish I'd done it too. But I was worried for my drawing hand so I refrained. Maybe next time I will try it.

Also I am sad because soon the tae kwon do class will have almost no peoples because our brown belt guy is moving away and my blue belt sister will move away and besides our teacher that's everyone except me and another white belt person who only sometimes comes. I feel like Kaoru from Rurouni Kenshin after all her students left her.

I've gotten in like 4 Internet arguments today. What the snot. I do not like arguments. That's what I get for playing the Devil's Advocate, I suppose.
Yesterday I went to the park and got various other exercise, so that's good. Today I was pretty sluggy though.

At Tae kwon Do the other day I was made to do Patterns and my brain is going to die. It is too hard! >: You have to do all these steps and blocks and stuff over and over in a pattern and I am so CONFUSED. Because I don't even know how to do anything right in the first place, let alone doing them over and over really quick.

I'm quite in the mood to make some creative stuff, but that'll have to wait until tomorrow when I have the house to myself again.

Something depressing me lately are those who are all "nothing is original." It annoys me and makes me feel all sad and hopeless and not wanting to write or draw stuff. Which is just about my least favorite feeling.

I was up for 24 hours and then went to tae kwon do class. I am pooped. Utterly pooped. BEDTIME FOR ME.

Oh also, I finally got to see the skunk who lives in my neighborhood! He was all cute and he floofed as he walked.