I sometimes forget I draw.
I was like "I want somebody to draw a pretty picture of Atlas!" and I realized, Hm. I can if I really want to. Huh.

Instead, I play Minesweeper.

I got my green belt for tae kwon do. I have no idea how that happened because I kind of suck.

One of my mice, Itchy, died. We buried her today.

I'm literally afraid of drawing right now. I think it might be because I drank a bunch of caffeine, which makes me obscenely depressed and I'll probably start having suicidal thoughts in a minute. Whee! Hopefully I can distract myself by getting some writing done.

Instead of working on the drawings I owe people I've been messing around with my layout on LJ and Storm. I don't even know why I'm procrastinating. I think I'm getting depressed again.

I have been writing but it's turning into weird emo schlock instead of how I pictured it.

Do any of you guys wonder what people are saying about you behind your back? Not in a paranoid way, but honestly curious? I talk about other people all the time in my circles online and IRL, I can't help but wonder what others say about me. Or if I'm even noticeable enough to be talked about.
On a related note, does anyone else secretly admire other online people but not really know how to approach them? I always feel dumb being like "I agree with everything I've ever seen you say and your art is amazing will you stoop to be my friend?" or "Your circle of friends is so witty and fun-looking, can you pry open a spot for me amongst you?" I'm too shy and lazy to go and talk to people most times though. Meh.

I worked for a couple hours on a painting and suddenly I looked down and realized it was horrible and I was ruining it more the more I worked on it. *cries* It was traditional and it couldn't be fixed.
So I still have to remake the painting and I've made no progress on the other paintings I want to make for people before Christmas.

Plus I have a stomach ache for no reason and it's making me irrationally angry.

I need to lie down or something.

I really want a tablet lately. I normally wouldn't care much since for practical purposes the mouse suits me just fine, but I'm suddenly all paranoid about getting carpal tunnel. I'll put it on my Christmas list and pray my parents get me one, I guess.

Stored away most of my stuff on DeviantART. I was going to make a journal on there about that but I don't want to sound like a crazy person to the people who've just started watching me.
Basically I did it since I don't feel like I belong on dA. I haven't felt like I belong there in a long time, and I've actually begun getting really uncomfortable exposing my art there. My characters, my paintings... they're getting more precious to me all the time; I feel protective of them lately for some reason. I could go on an angry rant about the general shallowness and screwed-up priorities of the masses on dA, but I'm not going to stoop to that.
Note I didn't say I was leaving, of course. I still intend to hang out, give comments, etc. And I'm leaving up my tutorials and stamps since they're meant to be used and shared.
(By the way, if there's a picture of mine you want to see again, look for it on Storm-Artists, or you can ask me to put it up again temporarily. Feel free to save anything you want to your hard drive and all that.)

My novel for Nanowrimo is going badly, I'm 6,000 words behind due to having a Certain Somebody around all the time, general busy-ness, starting over with a new story and then going back, etc. But I still have hopes of catching up! *shakes fist at the heavens*

Life is OK lately, aside from some financial ickiness (i.e. possible rent lateness).

I've got to work on some art projects but I'm having a major My Ideas Outweigh My Talents moment. I hate that, truly.

Mmm, what else....
katwalkchan changed her journal and I kind of want to also, because I think having x's as part of your username means you're Straightedge? But I do not have 15 disposable dollars to buy a name change token and I don't wanna switch journals.
Also I don't know what I'd change it to, possibly either Atlas_Hugged or Slugworks.

lately I've been wanting a tablet since I'm annoyed with how little texture there is to my digital paintings; texture is extremely time-consuming to do with a mouse and I'm a really impatient person. Maybe I should work on some traditional crap for now.

Also lately I've been staying up past dawn no matter how tired I am and it's really annoying me. Like I physically cannot go to sleep before 5:30 in the morning. UGH.

Another random thought: I just realized that Kakariko Village from Ocarina of Time=Windfall Island from Windwaker. The music is even similar. And they both have windmills. This makes the Legends Aren't Accurate theory from TV Tropes all the more appealing to me. (See http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/WMG/TheLegendOfZelda)