Why can't I be a normal human with a normal sleep schedule?
I always have operated as though days were 25 hours long-- I stay up an hour later every night, usually staying up to the wee hours of the morning. Then some real-life commitment requires me to endure some insane sleep loss so that I can be awake at the right time. Then everything is whacked out for a couple days and then I go back to my usual hours. I always seem to stay up until at least 2 in the morning no matter what. My internal clock seems to regard the hours between 8 and 10 AM as hellish; I can't remember the last time I was voluntarily awake at those times.

So yeah. I hate my body. Or I need to move to a new planet with a 25-hour day. Anyone know of any?

I've discovered I do not have a way with words.
Like, I'll come up with an idea and express it. Then someone will come along and be like "No no no, that's all wrong, what you should be thinking is this" and they'll say what I meant but in more exact words. And then I think "Well, that's pretty much what I meant," and I feel like they think I'm ignorant or whatever and if they hadn't ~swooped down to correct me~ I would be lost in the ~error of my thoughts~ even though we had the exact same thought, just worded differently.

Lol, run-on sentences.

Wisconsin is being really rainy and brown and pretty. I wish I had a camera.

Also everyone on my friends list seems to have collapsing lives and/or is really upset. All at the same time. And I'm too depressed myself to really console anyone. Blerrrrrgh

I have a tae kwon do test soon. I am only moderately confident. I've got to remember more stuff than in the last test.

I've been reading Frank Peretti and apparently just sitting down and reading something new is all it took to get me in a writing mood again. And I read a book about developing characters by Orson Scott Card, which went into the MICE (milieu-idea-character-event) explanation of plot types and I realized my Naasenor Story switches from being a Milieu story to a Character one midway through. That's probably why the worldbuilding in the second half seems so dull. Hunh.

I really want a tablet lately. I normally wouldn't care much since for practical purposes the mouse suits me just fine, but I'm suddenly all paranoid about getting carpal tunnel. I'll put it on my Christmas list and pray my parents get me one, I guess.

Stored away most of my stuff on DeviantART. I was going to make a journal on there about that but I don't want to sound like a crazy person to the people who've just started watching me.
Basically I did it since I don't feel like I belong on dA. I haven't felt like I belong there in a long time, and I've actually begun getting really uncomfortable exposing my art there. My characters, my paintings... they're getting more precious to me all the time; I feel protective of them lately for some reason. I could go on an angry rant about the general shallowness and screwed-up priorities of the masses on dA, but I'm not going to stoop to that.
Note I didn't say I was leaving, of course. I still intend to hang out, give comments, etc. And I'm leaving up my tutorials and stamps since they're meant to be used and shared.
(By the way, if there's a picture of mine you want to see again, look for it on Storm-Artists, or you can ask me to put it up again temporarily. Feel free to save anything you want to your hard drive and all that.)

My novel for Nanowrimo is going badly, I'm 6,000 words behind due to having a Certain Somebody around all the time, general busy-ness, starting over with a new story and then going back, etc. But I still have hopes of catching up! *shakes fist at the heavens*

"Comment on this post. I will choose seven interests from your profile and you will explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so others can play along." If you don't wanna be tagged, I won't though XD

( The Kindest Cut )

Life is OK lately, aside from some financial ickiness (i.e. possible rent lateness).

I've got to work on some art projects but I'm having a major My Ideas Outweigh My Talents moment. I hate that, truly.

Mmm, what else....
katwalkchan changed her journal and I kind of want to also, because I think having x's as part of your username means you're Straightedge? But I do not have 15 disposable dollars to buy a name change token and I don't wanna switch journals.
Also I don't know what I'd change it to, possibly either Atlas_Hugged or Slugworks.

lately I've been wanting a tablet since I'm annoyed with how little texture there is to my digital paintings; texture is extremely time-consuming to do with a mouse and I'm a really impatient person. Maybe I should work on some traditional crap for now.

Also lately I've been staying up past dawn no matter how tired I am and it's really annoying me. Like I physically cannot go to sleep before 5:30 in the morning. UGH.

Another random thought: I just realized that Kakariko Village from Ocarina of Time=Windfall Island from Windwaker. The music is even similar. And they both have windmills. This makes the Legends Aren't Accurate theory from TV Tropes all the more appealing to me. (See http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/WMG/TheLegendOfZelda)

I finished Twin Peaks. I didn't like the last episode hugely (I think it explained too much) but overall the series was superb.

Right now I feel like embarking on writing an epic story of some sort but the tone has not congealed yet and I have zero ideas for characters that aren't like every character I've ever made before.

On an unrelated note, I kinda want to make a list of all the tropes that appear in my own stories.

Walked around Madison, first to the capitol building and then to the Monona Terrace. My feet hurt but it had to be done to work off the greasy wontons I'd snacked on :b The wontons were homemade; me and my sister are going to go through her cookbook and make every recipe that looks good. This recipe involved going to an Asian/Hispanic grocery store and we wandered around looking at the weird crap like dead seahorses in the frozen foods section.

Also the other day I was watching Robot Chicken and it was the Star Wars episode. I was laughing so hard I was crying. I wanna buy that episode somehow.

Also my man's car got smashed into and now we can't drive at night for fear a cop will notice the burnt-out headlight and pull us over.

Oh also I've been managing to draw again and I got un-stuck in my story.

Oh also also I went to Kim's friend Paul's house and I wanted to harass his kitty but it was asleep.

Did some re-writing and some drawing. Cleaned gerbil cage.

Then Kim came and the delivery people from both places we ordered food from screwed up big-time and we ended up waiting 2 hours for all our food to get here.

Watched Supernanny and Wife Swap.

I am a sleepy seed. Also my joints ache for some odd reason.

I've been wanting a dog again lately, but there is the ever-present problem of paying for its upkeep. Because you know as soon as we get one, it'll break its leg or something.

So depressed lately too. I keep remembering every dumb thing I've done and it eats away at my happiness. Only Christmas spirit has kept me from plunging into utter despair.

We still have our expanded cable we aren't paying for, so I'm getting my non-money's worth by watching Animal Planet for hours on end. Soon they will probably take away the channels, but oh well.

Printed up my Christmas cards and I hate what they say inside. "Let it snow." It was all I could think of even after looking online for cool poems or holiday sayings and such. None of the stuff they had fit the tone of the card.
I did find this nice quote by Erma Bombeck of all people, and I like it: "There's nothing sadder in this world than to awake Christmas morning and not be a child."

Lessee, what did I do today...

I played the Sims 2 some more. Babies are being born.

I went to Kim and Amber's and while ordering at taco Bell, I ordered a "small taco." And then I dropped a packet of sauce for no reason. It just kinda .. fell. My brain wasn't working quite right, and I still feel a little woozy. I think I didn't get enough sleep.

I'm still in a Christmasy mood. I feel like watching "Home Alone."

Played the Sims some more. There is plenty of WooHooing going on. Also, due to some bizarre glitch, one of my Sims' weddings featured, as a guest, every person he had ever met thus far in the game. I spent a good portion of the festivities shooing away 90% of the guests as my computer started freezing up.

Wrote a little bit, because finally some story ideas are formulating.

Tried to sleep but couldn't due to an agonizing stomach ache. Spent the morning weeping and doubled up in agony.

Today, me and my man went to the mall despite the crowds. Because I wanted to try those new $2 tiny Quizno's sandwiches, and the nearest Quizno's is in the mall.
Those sandwiches are yummy! But they're really small.

Then we went to Menard's and looked at all the sinks and showers and Christmas ornaments and such.

I feel like playing the Sims....

Slowly getting back into Home-Mode.
Played the Sims a bunch and got nausea as a result.

A joyous discovery

I hear it snowed today. Winter is upon us. Also, it was really windy. Which was cool.

I feel kind of icky today because I didn't leave the house except to get a newspaper from the thingy and I didn't eat any vegetables. Plus, I'm stuck on a dumb schedule where I don't fall asleep until after dawn. I hate that.

On the plus side, I'm starting to feel very Christmasy. Also I started a new game on the Sims 2 and I made up 12 somewhat-random characters and will be breeding them in isolation in their new neighborhood. Huzzah!

Typed up Christmas list.

My man hates and has abandoned me. Oh well.

Meh. very little happened today. Go me.

EDIT: Sudden fit of arachnophobia, brought on by Clock Spider. BLECH.

Watched "Bourne Ultimatum" with my man. Was good.

Right now he's laying on the floor like a zombie complaining about how bored he is. Ugh.

Today I went to Baraboo. Did my sisters' laundry (long story) and played Tales of Symphonia with the small ones.

Then we went to Scott's storage Garage thingy and dropped off some of his stuffs.

Mm that's all.

It's been all cold lately, reminding me that summer is close to being over and soon I will have to prepare for  fall and then the dearth that is winter.

I've even been fattening up for it. Like the other day I ate all this food, and today me and my man went to Denny's and I am stuffed to the brim with seasoned fries.

I've been watching the "Planet earth" documentaries on DVD and I stupidly decided to watch the "deep ocean" episode even though Underwater Things are one of my worst phobias. I was exposed to the sight of foot-long underwater pillbugs scuttling around on the ocean floor, snacking on a tuna carcass. GAH.
It's a really good series though. GO WATCH IT.

Also, got a new phone feature so I can e-mail myself my camera phone pictures. So that's good news.

That's all.