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I keep listening to Vocaloid songs on YouTube.

So, I had a dream that there were these cages in our yard full of random stray or abandoned guinea pigs, chinchillas, rats, and gerbils. Some were babies.
I had to decide what to do with them and it was pretty stressful, especially when the baby chinchillas started to die.

I sometimes forget I draw.
I was like "I want somebody to draw a pretty picture of Atlas!" and I realized, Hm. I can if I really want to. Huh.

Instead, I play Minesweeper.

Curses! I'm stuck in my NaNo progress.

I have to figure out why these cowherds would be willing to smuggle a band of refugees amidst their cattle.

*Prepares the Deus Ex Machina cannon*

Good news: We got my guinea pig Oily a Cubes & Coroplast cage: http://www.guineapigcages.com/cubes.htm and he will be very pleased since it will be bigger than his current one.

Bad news: My black gerbil Kuroichi died. ;_;

I want to cut off my hair. It's tangly and lumpy and I don't know how to style it so it always just looks dumb. But I also don't want to. This is the longest my hair has been in some time and it might be pretty if it's really long. Maybe once it gets long enough it won't do the stupid lumping up thing.

I don't know. I can't deal with having a body, someone put my brain in a jar and attach a voice synthesizer because that's all I feel like coping with today.

1,069 words on my first NaNoWriMo day. Not the best start but I haven't written in a little while so I'm getting back into the groove. Hopefully it will just get better from here.

Well, I turned in an application at Half-Price Books. Let's see what happens.

Today's discovery about self:
I really, really, really, really, really don't like for my taste to be called into question or mocked. Be that taste in friends, movies, music, art, interior decorating, spouse, or whatever.
I probably should not take it so personally but it makes me cry every time.

I think I am just too serious about life.

I'm thinking of posting art again on deviantART so maybe I'll get more commissions.

I really don't want to go back there though.

Nrgh.

I'm getting excited for Christmas! Must not write my Christmas list or listen to Christmas songs or put up Christmas decorations. The temptation is just so terrible though.

Neuroticism	96
Extraversion	1
Openness to Experience	27
Agreeableness	57
Conscientiousness	10

You do not usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.

Free Poll ugg

Somewhat accurate I suppose.

I had a dream about Livejournal.

In my dream, I was being talked about on sf_drama. Somehow my name came up in a post, and someone I didn't even remember talking to said "Oh, Arpie! I had the weirdest conversation with her. She wouldn't shut up about her stories." and then someone else said, "I find Arpie easier to tolerate if I pretend she's just some sad, lonely man pretending to be a cute girl on the Internet for attention. Or maybe she's a transsexual."

Then I joined in the conversation and tried to convey the fact that I actually was somewhat amused by these comments and not being one of those people who's butthurt and just tries to pretend to be amused. I failed, and got mocked further, but in my dream I didn't care too much.
Then lilenth joined in the conversation but I woke up before I read what she said. I'm sure it would have been interesting, too.

I was kind of annoyed when I woke up because I always wonder what people I don't know think about me, but now I'm back to square one and have no idea again. Sigh.

Yes, this is my guinea pig.

Why can't I be a normal human with a normal sleep schedule?
I always have operated as though days were 25 hours long-- I stay up an hour later every night, usually staying up to the wee hours of the morning. Then some real-life commitment requires me to endure some insane sleep loss so that I can be awake at the right time. Then everything is whacked out for a couple days and then I go back to my usual hours. I always seem to stay up until at least 2 in the morning no matter what. My internal clock seems to regard the hours between 8 and 10 AM as hellish; I can't remember the last time I was voluntarily awake at those times.

So yeah. I hate my body. Or I need to move to a new planet with a 25-hour day. Anyone know of any?

I got my green belt for tae kwon do. I have no idea how that happened because I kind of suck.

One of my mice, Itchy, died. We buried her today.

I'm literally afraid of drawing right now. I think it might be because I drank a bunch of caffeine, which makes me obscenely depressed and I'll probably start having suicidal thoughts in a minute. Whee! Hopefully I can distract myself by getting some writing done.

This may be one of the coolest things I've ever seen/heard.

I've written myself into a scene that is so boring I don't even want to write it. I'm stuck.
*slump*

Hey, everyone- link me to a few sites you love and think everyone on the Internet needs to know about. They can be funny or useful or whatever. The Internet is not interesting me and I need fresh blood!

I almost went and applied for this job today- http://madison.craigslist.org/med/1356538601.html
But I'm not really confident enough. I know I could make good enough pictures for what they want but design, on the other hand, is not my strong suit. Book covers and logos aren't my thing.
Plus I don't really understand things like DPI and how big things need to be to be published and they might want someone who knows about that type of thing.

So I'm a little bummed because for a minute it seemed like something I could do.

So I have this character named Reveo. I like him, I like his name.

But guess what I discovered today: http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&source=hp&q=reveo&gbv=2&aq=f&oq=&aqi=g10

My character shares a name with a meat marinating machine. Wut.